But there is one day a year that I feel the weight of a single responsibility the most. This particular day is the yearly culmination of a daily, and sometimes tedious, responsibility. Which day is that might you ask? Testing! End-of-year testing, to be exact. Since this is an annual academic event all students must endure you might be wondering why it causes me some mild anxiety. That’s because I chose to embark on this perilous journey called homeschooling.
On no other day do I feel the full, heavy weight of responsibility than I do the day my children are tested. Perhaps it’s the
sobering fact that if they don’t do well, I have no one to blame but myself. Or maybe it’s the fear of being judged for my unconventional choice. What if I don’t measure up? What if I’m not doing it right? What if I’m messing my children up? And therein lies the problem: all those “I” statements. The truth of the matter is I secretly feel that the testing is more of a measure of me than of my child’s academic abilities.
But here’s the thing about bearing a heavy weight, be it physical, emotional, or otherwise. If you have enough strength it’s easy to carry the load. Strong arms and shoulders don’t struggle. King David was convinced of this truth with every fiber of his being as he declared over a dozen times in the Psalms that the Lord was, “(his) strength”. And what about that verse we all have memorized in our heads, but seldom believe in our hearts? “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Phil. 4:13).
Whether you’re running a kingdom or a classroom, His arms are strong enough. We don’t have to bear the weight alone.