If I were to honestly assess myself, I'd say that overall I'm a happy person and content with my life. Every part that is, except my home school. Like most homeschool families, we are a larger-than-average family living on a single income. My husband jokingly states the truth this way: we're twice the size on half the income! But here's where it gets a little tricky. My husband in a full time pastor, so the single income we have to work with is significantly smaller than most, and we often do without. In addition, we live at least forty-five minutes from any type of outside resources. Due to time lack of time and limited gas money, we frequently are not able to participate in extracurricular activities. And if I'm not careful, I find myself falling into the grave sin of complaining. Like the Israelites, I look around and call God's provisions "worthless bread". Although they were referring to God's miraculous manna, I'm just as guilty.
Wow; it must be nice to buy all new curriculum and not have to piece-mill used stuff from all over.
I sure wish we could afford to go on those kinds of field trips.
If only my kids had similar opportunities, then they would be successful.
Why can't we have the luxury of simply walking into a store and buying what we need, when we need it?
What my faithful, patient Lord is teaching this stubborn, stiff necked child is that contentment is a daily choice. Daily choosing, daily trusting. In the end, it is the Lord who will accomplish His purpose and plan in my children's lives, not my carefully chosen curriculum or outside opportunities.
Being transparent is risky, but "being real" can also encourage those around you! I'd love for you to leave a note below if you'd be willing to share your own challenges!